High school

Often when I look back at older pics of myself, most taken in my high-school days, which were only two years ago, I wonder why life took such an interesting turn. When I graduated I felt that life was so full of promise. Unfortuatly the year that followed my graduation majorly sucked, I worked at the cheesecake factory, remained incredibly anti-social and lived with my parents. How much more lame do you get? Life seemed to take an upswing in may of 2009  when I moved to Colorado, I was stoked about going to CSU and getting to know some awesome people. Then life through a fast ball at me again, after living in Colorado for 5 1/2 months, after making some amazing friends and enjoying the lovely mountains, God unexpectedly sent me packing. I was in shock for 6 mos. I wondered what had gone sooo wrong that I ended up in back in KC, AGAIN! Then in February of 2010, life again changed, I met my roomie, the sweetest girl on the planet who is slowly teaching me that I am lovable, something I have always struggled with and apparently thats the reason I LOVE chocolate SOOO much, I have self love issues. If you want to know more look up the study done on the effects of chocolate. Anyway, life looked up for a while, I became motivated again, I began looking into other art schools that I was interested in attending, and I was excited when it finally seemed like I would be leaving KC for good and going to San Fran to pursue fashion. Then, you guessed it, another fast ball came my way, I felt God telling me to do OYM, Oym is short for one year mission. In other words, God was asking me to lay myself bare before a group of 11 or so people who would be going through oym with me, but even worse than that, god was telling me to stay in KC for ANOTHER year! I don't know what is going to happen, I don't know if I will ever go to college, or get a good job or...LEAVE KC. I don't know anything, and I am worried, but all I can think of is that verse that says something like..."trust and obey... trust and obey.... trust and obey..." God help me to trust and obey and not to fear....