Peace... ~_~

Peace that passes understanding has come upon me :) Tonight I did something very new to me, I listened to my feelings and realized they were hurt. So I graciously, but straightforwardly, shared how I felt. It was AMAZING! I couldn't believe the peace I felt after-wards. Even though the other party may not have agreed with me, I VALIDATED MY FEELINGS AND OPINIONS, so new for me. It was so great. I feel better about myself, just by doing that, I now respect myself and love myself so much more. I self loath so much sometimes, I wonder if its because I often don't speak up for myself when something bothers me. I love life right now, thank you JESUS for communication and language! Also, tonight I had a man, trusted and old so no weirdness, tell me that someday a man will marry me not for my money, which I hope to have A LOT of someday ;)' but because I am alluring...Me? Alluring? No.?? Yes!!!? I am still trying to come to grips with that...really??? REally.?? Hmmmmmmmm......