Amazing DAY

Today was an absolutely amazing day. God just gave me a gift today! There is a girl I have slowly been getting to know the past 5 or 6 months and today She, her friend and I all went rock climbing! It was amazing, me hanging out with two amazing women who are sweet, normal, mature can carry on a two or three way conversation. Who encourage me as well as each other. Who look out for each other, talk, laugh and have a great time. I had almost forgotten what that was like. It was such a blessing and I had such a wonderful time, just being with these girls who know how to be friends. I have not recently had the pleasure of being around people like this, people I don't have to keep my guard up around. On the way to hang out with them I was facing the regular battles of my everyday life, the regular drama, and then I decided to ignore the cell phone, to look forward to my time with these girls and to forget the trials I was dealing with a moment before. Fittingly a song came on my stereo by a fantastic band. Nada Surf was singing my exact feelings out on my stereo. Their words were, " To hell with it I'm gonna have a party, to hell with it I'm gonna have a party, to hell with it I'm gonna have a party"! YEAH! To hell with all the people I have been trying to "graciously and kindly and directly and responsibly and maneuverability and carefully" deal with for the past 7 months, I am gonna forget about them for a while and I am gonna have a party and it felt as though God was saying, "Emily, I will take care of your trials, I will deal with them, I will judge them, I will fix them, you can forget about them now and forever, but it's easier to now, and you can enjoy your afternoon. You can have a party". THANK YOU GOD!!!!! I had a great time, the sun shone down on me and I drove down the road to Kansas singing, "To hell with it I'm gonna have a party!"
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Challenging Circumstances Immature People

My God, there are some people out there that think nothing of others and everything of themselves. I long to bless and serve them, but I have my limits, and they have been reached. I have reached the end of my patience, it is now time for God to take over and show me how to act and treat these girls, God give me patience and help me know how to set and keep my boundaries and not react to peoples emotional states. My God, I know so much good is coming from these circumstances he has put me in, I am so happy that through trials God brings me closer to him, he is more real and lovely to me now than ever. Yet, I desire peace, I desire to live with women who are servants who are outward focused, not inward focused, who desire to see the world be reached with the gospel, who desire to love god and love others, who can fight this battle with me, not drain me completely.